Insomnia is a gross feeder. It will nourish itself on any kind of thinking, including thinking about not thinking. ~Clifton Fadiman
The clock strikes midnight, starting another day in the cycle of life. Eyes open. Aware. Thinking and looking up at the same ceiling, described to its smallest details over and over again. The handprint from bouncing on the bed. The tiny crack from a leak. It's just another night for Tah Phrum Duh Bush.
Coming from the depths of East Flatbush, Tah had issues getting up from sleep as a kid, forcing him to figure out a way to stay up. Once he reached high school, the pattern flipped and he couldn't get himself to sleep. It's all he's known for the rest of his life. A mind that runs all day and all night with no sense of stopping, enough to give him relief.
"The dichotomy of my life continues to haunt me. Anything with me is an opposite. I've learned that my life is a constant evaluation of opposites, polar opposites and grey area opposites."
The struggle of having a brain that doesn't stop was forcing Tah to look at natural remedies such as Melatonin, which didn't work. He took Valerian Root which just led him to hallucinate deeply. Remedies began to fade bringing him to a scary place of suicidal thoughts.
"There's a fear of not finding a way out of the way you're currently living. And to know that there's one sure possible way out is one of the scariest things in the world."
As this process continued, Tah chose to write a couple of songs about his experiences with the idea of putting out a maxi-single. The process took him deeper than he thought as song after song came rushing out. It became a full album as his friends encouraged him to get personal so people can get to know who Tah is as an artist and a human being. Luminous Dark Alleys: The Insomniac Works was born, giving way to not only an album but an accompanying book.
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